My thoughts

That is how I’m feeling right now, I want to scream and cry, but I can’t do either.

My stress levels are through the roof because of uni, and to add to it, I’m feeling like I have noone supporting me at the moment.

Hubby’s parents (and by that I meant MIL) are stressing me out BIG TIME! I have my graduation in about 3 weeks, and I have been asking them both to make sure they have the day at least tentatively booked off for my graduation. FIL has been great and really supportive and quite excited in a way. But MIL seems to be making excuses. Each time I’ve mentioned it she’s either changed the subject or whinged about how she’d be missing a whole days pay (which she reckons is $800, but I know she doesn’t earn that much). For once, hubby seems to have even noticed, although, still got a little iffy about it.

To add to that, MIL has now decided that she probably has cancer now instead. Now, I’m sure there will be those who think I am a heartless bitch with what I say next, but you only have to read my other posts to see what I mean….
She’s full of shit! She is apparently getting tests (like to see the proof) and seeing specialists (again, the proof?) – if she is, the doc hasn’t sent her out of choice, hrh MIL has requested, no, demanded this herself. I am sure that this is a ploy to get all the attention. She will do anything to be the centre of attention.

Well I’m not falling for it, I can see right through it. I can guarantee that she will make a big announcement about it on my graduation day, cos the day can’t be about me (go figure), no it has to be about Judy. She did it on our wedding day – who wears black to a wedding (apart from the groom?) except a bitchy MIL to be who wants to be centre of attention (heaven forbid the bride and groom are!!!!!) and “didn’t hear” when we said not to enter the reception room until allowed in (stirred alot of trouble did that one), and sat at the head table through the reception with a gob on her (I have photos somewhere). She hates not being the be all and end all of everything – so why not fake a cancer scare – people fake pregnancies for attention all the time, why not one up them.

I am just on the verge of looking her in the eye and telling her to fuck off back to Zim or SA and go tell someone who gives a flying fuck. I swear I will if she does anything to make my graduation about her.

Ok, rant over. Time for bed. I feel better now.

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