Still not good
I am trying hard not to cry and to keep how I feel hidden so R doesn’t worry, but I think he knows. I’ve barely spoken all day, and I’m sure he noticed I didn’t come to bed until about 5am.
Even though I have R at my side and with me alot of the time, I feel completely alone. Noone understands how I’m feeling or seems to care. I try to talk to my “friends”, but they are so wrapped up in their own lives to listen or care. I don’t even think they would notice if I vanished, even for a little while.
I have no friends – all I have is R. And while I love him with all my heart, I still need other people around. It’s not fair that its always on him, he didn’t sign up for this, its just been dumped on him.